mild delirium but still chuggin

Mild delirium because I came out of a 5-hr long meeting just now and have been feeling sick. Also because one week here can feel like a month and a day at the same time. It's a whirlwind b/c so much happens, and in the end it goes by fast, but adding up everything seems like it could have been much longer.

So I was a "Unit Facilitator" these past 10 days or so, meaning that us four led the "Rural Unit" (focused on agriculture) and it's exchanges with community organizers, villagers, the governor and major Thai leaders. This type of learning style emphasizes group process, so all the students will eventually facilitate a unit or are "process facilitators" throughout the semester, studying the flow and vibes of our group and whether our process is effective. It requires a lot of work, but I've found myself incredibly wrapped up in it and the topics -- I feel like these skills are essential to develop, and I feel like these experiences are essential to have. Some experiences that stood out to me:

-talking with now organic farmers who used to spray chemicals and had gone to the hospital with intense health effects
-forming a wonderful relationship with my host mom in Yasothorn Province. Her husband died in an accident last year and she has one young son. She grows organic vegetables that she sells in the village and Green Market. It was hard to leave her intense compassion and delicious, healthy cooking. I really hope I can go back!
-talking to Ubon and Bamrung who are community organizers, have traveled to the US to promote sustainable agriculture and learn about our organic movement, have seen a lot of injustice and who both heavily promote self-sufficiency as a way of combating corruption
-the sunset on the farm and the sunrise at the market

I'm sure there are many more that just flew over my head, but it gives you an idea.

Generally, if I look past the mild delirium and confusion aspects of this program, I am incredibly grateful. I suddenly feel like I care about things, like I'm gradually building up an intense passion for people, their rights, the connections they make. I sometimes feel overwhelmed and shocked at how unfair the world is and want it to just fix itself and go away already. To leave people in peace. To spread love. Then there are moments where I feel very empowered and excited, like there is something to work towards and that I'm very hopeful about the power of bringing ideas and people together. Basically I am all over the place and I'm dying to see where this program takes me, and then where I take this program.

Also, get ready for the hot season! I feel it coming already...

I know these blogs aren't the most specific in terms of what I'm doing, so if you want to know a little more, feel free to email me and I hope to respond to you within the next couple of weeks.

Thinking of you!